I know it may seem like a sudden thing, of course, horrible - everyone sees it in his own way, I know, I know that any way you have to see it be a bad thing, but it is so.
The world does not stop, waits for no one.
To the universe does not matter whether any of the tiny ants that inhabit it dies, we humans are nothing other than an insect or dust mite, for him.
We are not special, the universe depends on us and do not stop to wait.
Time continues to flow. The day does not stop chasing the night, the Earth does not stop its motion of revolution or rotation. Galaxies do not cease to expand, the stars are born and die, the rain falling or the sun to shine.
the death of someone, the world does not stop.
recently died a lot of people I know - both directly and indirectly.
My professor of physical education, for example, or the father of my sister's boyfriend. All during this time.
And I know that is not nice to say, but I have not shed a tear.
Which memories do not even cried when my grandfather died, the day after my birthday a few years ago '.
I remember thinking only that I was grateful, because I was able to hear him say again Cards once. But do not weep.
not even cried when my uncle called to tell us that my cousin had committed suicide - I thought there just was not to be so good then as he said, if he comes close.
I do not know what is normal not to cry for a loss like that, but when I die people I know I never cry.
My world keeps turning, life continues to flow, no change in practice.
It 's a bit sad, but it is as if everything depended on what I do not in any way by those around me.
I feel bad when I can not weep for the dead.
Perhaps, I thought many times, all the tears I have to pay to spend for what is not real.
Because when people die in the manga or anime, I cry a lot. And 'what is real to not be able to touch me.
I also thought that maybe the problem was that my brain could not conceive how real - do not see the corpse, you hear the desperate screams, the deafening cries, the prayers that everything is a dream.
These are all things, this, that in the manga you see and hear all too vividly. Eventually that will touch the soul is almost obvious.
But in reality it's all different. And sometimes my apathy makes me 'feel deeply flawed.
Because my world keeps turning anything happen to me, because time continues to run and the rain continues to fall.
I wonder if this is right ...